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I didn't realized that you sacrificed the Kbox session half way thru with your close friends to be close to me. To rush all the way from Selegie to AMK. To have dinner at my home, that my mum cooked. Just to be close to me. To be plagued with comments and rumors that 'you have changed'. And that all your friends start to leave you alone, with me. They start to feel about you. It made you think, 'do you deserved this just to be close to me'. It must have been hard on you! Just to be close to me. It must have made you cry. Just to be close to me. It must have made you worry and got you into problems. Just to be close to me. That your friends in church have to leave you and it must have caused you to feel bad and ill. That's why you fell terribly ill the whole of last week. To sacrifice the time with your closest girlfriend who will be leaving soon to Perth. Just to be close to me. Just to be close to me that night. And saddest part on my side. I just knew it. How terrible I felt, when you tear. The sacrifice you made. Just to be with me.
And how could your close friends you cared so much for, start to hurt you. To say things about you that you don't deserved. And that I think you cared for them more than you should. I told myself I will never let this matter rest. And in the process, I have learned plenty about the people around me. I have learned the love you have for me and the sacrifice. And you don't know how greatly I look upon you. I do!
This image below is taken from a Singapore Armed Forces propaganda advertisement. "I will defend what I value!" What is not mine, I cannot protect. What is mine, I will lay my soul to secure it. This is how I feel for you, Jane! Click the image to open a bigger picture.
Friends are such like Shelby. She who rushed down from her busy schedule to hug her friend in need. Yes, Shelby rush down to her house upon hearing her friend who was burdened, gave her a hug. Even i couldn't do this. Shame on me! I take my hat off, impressive. This is what are true friends for.
In the process, I hope I did not offend anybody. And regarding the PLH captain's ball. How people want to feel about me, so they feel. My conscious is clear. I know what I am doing. Take No offence, I am not directing this message to anybody particular. But I am going to prepare for the worst to come. Don't take into account what I have blogged in the previous post. I have striked them out.
Glad that you picked up my call. And you are willing to listen on how I felt on certain things. It wasn't really nice of me to rudely blast out everything to you. Take no offence please. We have to move on from here. There are many things waiting for us to do. We got to go. From this I understand you better. You know who you are.
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