new post @ 11:46 PM

I am posting now. It has been 3 months since I have last posted anything here. Within the past 3 months, my Dad passed away on the 13th of February. I was too depressed and sorrowful to post anything new here. Everytime I think of airing my painful thoughts in this blog, it would remind me of my Dad. We were so attached, Father and Son relationship. I seem to be doing worst than ever. And is doing worst a way out for me to ease my grief. This is heart wrenching as I type. As I think back, life felt pointless to me. I am left with nothing I guess. Nothing can fill that empty place my dad once stood in me. Though in my everyday life I may seem normal, I am bleeding painfully inside. I am just trying to make my way home to my dad. Make my way home, alone. How can I explain the feeling I am feeling inside. Because we are born in this world to live for death, can I say?