new post @ 12:25 AM

I am having a blend of confusing thoughts. I am petrified, is it a blessing or a curse? I reflected and realized that there is so much I have to grow for my age. It seems as if I am left stagnant. I have not been growing and learning more sophisticatedly, of which I should. I should be shrewd in my thoughts to achieve as a complex being. Yes, I am proud of my achievements but there is more room for enhancement and accomplishments. I must acknowledge my timid self. And start to learn and pick up to grow into a dynamic individual. My actions must accompany my speech. I may have been too playful in the past and probably the present too. But if I remove my social self I would be regarded as an individual not flexible in thoughts and actions but then again I should be able to struggle successfully with the indifference within, as part of my dynamicity. Is this pointless highlighting??? I feel so. I feel not.