new post @ 6:06 PM

A short glimpse. That is all. I saw her today. Yesterday marks exactly one year. Maybe it's time I should move on! I want to be into God, strongly rooted to him before I present myself to relationship. And army is taking up all of my time to transform me into a man. I want to be able to give myself and commit everything to relationship. Now is maybe not the right time for it. I don't come to church to find a relationship with the opposite sex. But I come to church to build my relationship with God. That should be it. We are still young, we have so many years and obstacles ahead of us. For the past one year, I have been in a illusion but not really. God gave me signs that we were meant. But maybe I misinterpreted it. I kept my options closed and focus on that one and only. I didn't open windows for anyone else and kept faithful. I was too narrow minded. God promises. I will just let go now, I will stop running. I will let the urge for her die out now... A new beginning will start for me. I won't feel depress, oppress to feel for her anymore. It has been a year, Exactly.