new post @ 11:09 PM

I went for Light House today. I really regretted my Actions, for I being so 'tau', so quite, so introvert. I wish I could get out of my shell.

Sometimes I hate life. I am missing someone I love. I regretted for not daring to tell her I like her. Now she is gone and I am living in a life of regret and hell, probably explains my introvertion. She is not around and I wonder when she will be back. I have totally lost contact of her. And I guess I won't know when she will be back again. But every night, I pray for her and her safety in a foreign land. And that's the only thing that keeps me burning for her. It's been a year and in this one year in camp, I dream about her. Sometimes even waking up in sweat, the aftermath is a happy and sad feeling altogether. I yearn and crave for her. And now it is as though I've lost a dear love one. It's really like as though she is dead. Her smile, feminine, the happier times. She will always be in me along with God for the rest of my life, Yes I put God before her. I hate it, I can't bear to let her go. I am preciously suffering for one year. How long will this have to go on? When will I get to see her face again? You will always be in my heart. But with you there, I am paining every second now for the rest of my life...

I went to SNGS to see her, for she was once there.