new post @ 11:10 PM

Ai yaya. It's such a long time since I last updated this shit blog. Oh well, I will be heading for Thailand this Monday for my military training. Live Firing will be done there. And we Mortar will be the first ever firing Mortar bombs at its highest charge in Thailand. Charge 8. I just have to pray and hope that everything will go smoothly.

Sometimes life can be so sick. I am so sick, tired, bashed. Help me, redeem me. I can't understand myself. "Why, Why", I ask myself. "Why are things like this." This is such a farken up world. I hate things to be like this. Can somebody one me. I am just so tired... Seeing it is so painful. Living it is worst. I am living. And it's Hell. I have no friends, not much rather. I am so much introverted. I dare not speak up. I have lost my confidence in everything. Hold me now. I am going down. And now it's hell. Save me and redeem me.