new post @ 5:32 PM

Army is a waste of time. Maybe that's how I see it now as a first year soldier. Quick please, let this two years pass by so I can get the hell out of army. Why please, must i serve like a dog and do things like a dog. I am always ever so carefree, but now after in the army, I lost my self-confidence. I won't stop here, we won't stop here. It will make me a better man I hope. But then again, it's probably my camp 40th SAR(Singapore Armour Regiment). It really sucks when I hear 40th SAR. That is because of this so called 'Best Combat Unit' and maybe the training will be tougher yeah, and lesser welfare yeah, get to go home lesser yeah and there will be more garang Platoon Commanders in 40th SAR yeah! Arrrh Shit.

I didn't go to church today. Maybe I was too tired. But sometimes, I am really scared of going to church for I know the following night, I will be back in camp. And my morale will be "S" low. Going to church is like charging up my energy, my positive-ness. It is a good feeling though.