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Faye has left for LA, Santa Monica. The songs at the end of this post are dedicated to her. As I post this now, she should have probably arrived in LA. �Faye, enjoy yourself in LA�
*Pls note that it may take some time for the songs to load depending on your internet connection.

Time flies. I still remember last Sunday Mark, Ben, Shaun, Eugene, Joanne, Jane, Shelby, Faye and I were in Pool Fusion after our service. Today, Faye is not with us but in LA and now as I sit here in front of my com with oranges neatly bisected on a plate beside me, I start to wonder how much time I am left with. How many more am I going to lose? I know myself as an introvert. So I treasure my friends with great respect. Losing them is like part of me being taken away, like losing a finger, a toe, some flesh�

Many cried that day while seeing Faye off to LA. It was hard on Candice. When I saw tears rolling down her checks, I realized that close bond she has with her sister. And probably deep within Candice, she must be crying out to her sister Faye, �Chea (sister) give me more time with you. Don�t leave me; we have been together all these years. Those sweet and beautiful moments. Those bitter and sour hours. We have been through together, don�t leave me now. Stay with me beside me with God. Hold my hand as we walk. Humor me as we laugh. Talk to me as you protect me. But don�t leave me when I am crying. I shout to you now but you can�t hear me Chea (sister)�� I was standing quite far behind from the departure hall as I witness the whole emotional parting; behind me was Uncle Justin with his arms around his daughter�s shoulder. There standing was Joy, Faye�s favorite companion. Poor Joy was in tears. I knew she cannot express herself. She was weak and she didn�t want to make this whole thing harder for Faye. I presume she knew Faye for more than 14 years. Those moments she had with Faye like the pre-christmas party in John�s house, the sentosa outing, easter retreat, sunday school, church camps and plenty more. It was really hard on her and it�s more than that I can explain about her. She is hiding it in her broken heart. Embattled indeed she was. It was also very taxing for Shaun. I went to the gents to calm myself; there I saw a guy, a very familiar chap whose face I see every Sunday. A guy who is spiritual mature and strong, crying wiping his tears, there I know how much Faye was to him. A friend and a sister in Christ.

But wait� the worst hit was Faye. She was strong. She did not cry. But can you imagine that; just imagine the thought of leaving your dearest family, your dearest friends, your home, your everything!... I tell you boy, it was so painful for Faye. You can read from her eyes, she was withdrawing those tears. You can tell that deep within her she was crying. She was praying to God for the uncertainties, for all the emotion. Faye was hurt. Faye was the most badly hit. And as much as she was excited to be in LA, she was nursing her losses.

Ok that�s enough. I am tired. I have been running. I think I should stop. You can stop running too. It seems endless� It has to end.

I was supposed to go to NYP today with my friends for a swim. But it was cancelled. A number of us can�t make it. Eventually only 4 were available, so we decided to postpone it till next week.




Here are the songs dedicated:
1. Go to http://www.streamload.com
2. Type in your User ID as: fodio
3. Type in your password as: fayefaye
4. Once logged in, on the top panel click the big button INBOX
5. Download and enjoy the songs dedicated to her